It's safe to assume that I'm pretty dull right now. With final exams for the semester just around the corner, play time will transcend into the negative realm.
"Negative" - what a fitting word! This isn't a new observation, merely a repetition, but: In the grand scheme of things, I'm quite a negative person. I am constantly doubting my ability to do anything substantial with my life, let alone do anything at all. I guess these feelings are especially prevalent around exam time... The utter frustration that I feel when I get a practice exam question wrong is, well, excruciating. I see people around me succeeding with the same questions without half the study and application I invest in my work. Truth be told, it makes me feel inadequate. Yes, I do better than just scrape through these assessment pieces. It's not the issue of passing. It's the issue of, why the hell is it taking me so much longer to learn these concepts?
Sometimes I doubt if I'm even on the right career path. Is Accountancy the right way to go? Perhaps the reason why I'm having a hard time learning these concepts is because this isn't the right vocation to me. When I left school I wasn't sure what I wanted to do, so I jumped at business because I thought I was marginally good at it at school. I always thought Journalism would be a good way to go, but I somehow convinced myself that my writing wasn't up to standard.
Hm, I think I need to get my priorities sorted.
Now I'm going to add a video which I think is really fitting to what I'm saying. No, it's not that "I must be Emo" video... It's "I quit being miserable" by YouTube's babyporridge.
Here it is:
Take care, readers!
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I think you're a great writer Lucy. And if you like doing it then you should go for it. But you should do something because you love it, not because you're good at it. Cheer up love :D Love you! x
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